Recently my ISC exams finished. That sentence is enough to bring a wave of relief down my spine but when after the wave has passed then I get to real thinking. After a few minutes of peace, I realize that I have nothing to do, academic-wise.
Technically, I still do have to start studying a few months after I reach college but I feel a void in me. It really hit hard when I realised that I will never be going back to my 15-year-old school as a student anymore, I did not really get the feeling when I was inside the building but as I stepped out there it was!
I have gotten so used to always “doing something” that it feels weird not to work on something which has a deadline. Now it’s all doing it by your will and to be honest to me it seems more frightening to me as the consequences are larger. For example, if one does poor in their examinations it is totally their fault but it is a given, we had to pass that barrier and due to unforeseen circumstances, an individual may have failed to achieve his or her expectations. But there can be ways by which he or she can improve that, however, when you do something of you your own there is less chance for that as then people are less sympathetic and at times there is no option but to start completely over. Like when you start a new business venture and the business does not sustain for some reason.
But I guess that is the real world the tougher it is the tougher we become, we have no choice but to overcome the challenges that are thrown upon us.
I am trying to get used to it. Here’s to new beginnings!
